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Thursday, April 21, 2005

I can, but will I?

I can leave comments on Rosie's blog....not like I will, but I like knowing that I can. The pressure of coming up with something witty and heartfelt is just too much...it ain't gonna happen. BUT I CAN IF I WANNA!!!

Wednesday, April 20, 2005

Praise & Worship

There are moments when Butchy and I get in the mood to listen to praise & worship music. They don’t come often, but when they do….ohhhh boy! We get those Spirit juices flowin’ and I get in touch with the large black woman living inside me. She’s one of those gals that wears a big hat to church on Sunday and just HAS to let the world know how much she feels the Spirit. Ohhhhh Jesus!! Glory!! Amen!! Can I hear a hallelujah??

I’ve come to the conclusion that praise & worship music is based on hypnosis…either that or Tourette’s Syndrome. All I know is that you must repeat the same phrase over and over and over and over. Then you sing another line and repeat that line until you feel the Spirit tell you to move on to another line. I guess there are some in the audience that may be a little slower than others and so you have to repeat yourself so that everyone “gets it.” Right now I’m hearing, “All things are possible” I’ve lost count how many times it was sung. So, we’ll just go with the knowledge that “All things are possible” and leave it at that.

The Spirit moves in strange and mysterious ways. When He speaks I’m sure He always repeats what He says until we ALL “get it.” Glory to Jesus!! Amen!! All things are possible!

Tuesday, April 19, 2005


I have been off living life and dealing with the wonderful world of allergies. Since my last post I haven't even checked in. Imagine my surprise to see the huge boost in visits and the wonderful comments?!? WOW!! I see that oodles of visitors have come via BlogXchange....I can't even remember what that is! But, WELCOME!!

I promise to be a better blogger and respond to everyone who comments. I deserve to be in blogging-time-out.

Somedays being interesting is more than I can handle....allergies suck the interest-factor right out of me. I'm done bitching and moaning.

Tuesday, April 05, 2005

Chocolate milk...it's the good life

Life is good. I have a chocolate milk mustache and I'm a happy girl. It doesn't take much to make me happy. Chocolate milk, Costco's chocolate covered almonds, Diet Dr. Pepper, microwave light butter popcorn....it's all good. Add to that a good book that I'm only 1/4 of my way into.....I'm ecstatic! It doesn't take much at all to please me.....my girlfriend gave me a little spiral notebook...she knows the way to my heart is through pens, paper, and the stuff listed above. I have more paper and pens than W*M!! I could easily stock my own paper supply store, but that would mean being willing to sell my treasures, and that just ain't gonna happen!

I should frame blank pieces of paper. Nothing is more exciting to me than the possibilities that a blank piece of paper present to me. I could use it to make a card, write a love letter, write a nasty "you suck" letter, begin The Great American Novel, write a song, write a list (I LOVE lists, too!) it has infinite possibilities! Paper's only limits are the limits I place on it.

I'm in a happy place right now. For the first time in over a year I'm finally feeling human. My sinus infection is basically cleared up, I'm pretty much over the nasty flu-bug, my voice is almost 100%, life is good! I've been euphoric....didn't realize how sick I was until now as I look back....I feel like I lost a year. 2005 is gonna be fabulous!!

Saturday, April 02, 2005

Sad kind of day

Rosie wrote a post that brought tears to my eyes. Its' title is waffle house.

I haven't been checking her blog daily. Funny, once she shut off her comments I distanced myself from her blog. It's sad that she couldn't just delete the negative comments and keep the positive ones. Maybe she wanted to protect herself from reading anything negative.....it just saddens me that she didn't take to heart all of the positive and encouraging posts. It also saddened me when I'd read the comments attacking her simply because she is a gay celebrity. Why are there those ass hats that feel it is necessary to destroy anything, everything and everyone in their path? It amazed me the way some losers went off on how she posted, her spelling, her format, etc......get a life losers! It's HER blog!! It's just sad.

Rosie causes me to feel sad. There is so much sadness in her eyes. It's sad that her blog url is onceadored....it sounds like she now considers herself un-adored. I just want to give her a hug. Not that it will cause her sadness to go away....I just want to soak up some of her sadness so she doesn't feel like she's bearing it alone.

Whenever I cross paths with a person who wears sadness like a shawl, I don't want to fix them, I want to share their sadness. It's important to me that they know they are not alone in their sadness. When they are in the depths of sadness I want to climb down into the depths with them so maybe the darkness isn't so dark and scary anymore. Just to hold their hand. Speech isn't necessary. My presence is my present to them. You are not alone.

I'm having a sad kind of day. I first felt sad when I found out the Pope had died. No, I'm not Catholic. I posted about it on my other blog. I, also, found out that an elderly lady that meant a lot to a friend of mine died yesterday. That made me sad for him.

Yep, it's a sad kind of day.